since our car accident last week,
little miss has been acting strange.
don't get me wrong,
she still our her sweet curious baby,
but something is bothering her.
i think its molars.
or nurse, or eat, or play, or cuddle...
it so pitiful.
she arches her back to get down...
then immediately turns around to be picked back up.
and she is doing this.
all. day. long.
constantly.
she's throwing fits.
temper tantrums...
i never remember any of the children i nannied going through this this early on.
it breaks my heart that she can't come right out and say,
"mama... i feel... [blank]"
"mama... it hurts"
"dada, help me"
now. be aware... i am running on minimal sleep,
and thats probably not always a best idea to start a post.
but its life. [and im praying one day i will look at this,
read and smile. remembering that it only lasted for a little while]
i know her teeth are bothering her,
but now im starting to wonder...
is it something else?
the past few nights i have gotten her to sleep by
putting her in the boba or ring sling and walking in circles
around the house. the christmas tree. the kitchen.
she knows if i stop walking.
or even if i walk in a straight line down the hall...
smart girl... a genius i tell you!
and even when she does fall asleep
its only for an hour or two.
then she is up again. over and over...
my patience is wearing thin.
i can't see straight anymore.
i keep trying to remind myself,
"she's trying to figure this out too"
tonight, one thought that struck me
in the shower [the best place for revelations]...
is that we don't have a schedule.
we have never really been that family.
im starting to doubt what i am doing.
im starting to worry that im doing a disservice to her
by not having a schedule. a constant pattern.
so tomorrow,
we will start a "routine".
i like the way that sounds much better. ;)
does anyone have any specific routine? schedule?
night time ritual for your littles?
what things work for you?
don't work?
come on mama's... i need all the help i can get!
as much as i love walking her to sleep,
my body can't take much more midnight walking laps.
xoxo
kate
